Rough...

So today I had to take the rental car back to the company. For those of you asking "rental? why does she need a rental?" I was in a bad accident on March 6 and it totaled my car. Well any ways I have my fiances brothers truck (a very large one I must say) until I can find a new car. That is not going so well. I wish it was because I want a car again. So that's, that issue.

My next issue is my wedding in two weeks. I have no one to help me. My maid of honor lives like an hour away from me and is doing everything she can. On the other hand my Bridesmaid isn't doing anything for me and it is frustrating me. She calls me when it is convenient for her and that is like 2 a month if I am lucky. I know she is busy and has a life, but she has made no commitment at all to this event. I feel as if she is doing just because and not doing it for me. We used to be like the best of friends and now after this incident I don't even know who she is or what she has become. Its like a totally different person.

My life right now is crazy. I have my wedding, college and everything else that comes with life. I am trying to find a new place for my family to live so I can get my family off my back about living the way that I do. Not that they have done any better at that age of their life, but whatever. If I don't do this then I will loose them all for good because of all the tedious fighting that seems to arise.

Along with finding a new place to live comes a new job. If it wasn't for my fiances son I wouldn't live in New York state. There is absolutely nothing here for work. It is just so hard. So I am just going to continue on with my education and keep hoping.